From then till now

After a long break, and after weeks of thinking to start again, till framing the post in my mind, I finally open a page to write. Since the last post in the beginning of October, a lot has happened. 

David George Daniel , our third son was born on the 21st of October, 2014. After a  3 day stay in the hospital to clear up the meconium aspiration, we came home. Two weeks, of experiencing a newborn and feeding brought back wonderful memories of our other two boys and David formed new experiences. We were back in the hospital with not enough weight gain and fast breathing which did not return to normal after our first discharge. Suspecting a heart issue, we were admitted and a NG tube was fixed to ease his feeding and to gain weight. The next week were filled with tests, and everytime they suspected something big, he was tested and then it was all normal. And then they found something in his brain which required us to go to another specialized hospital for the MRI. Our world was shaken.That trip in the ambulance was one of the many horrible experiences. Once the MRI was done, which was by no means just a test. He needed anesthesia, and it was an hour long MRI. Being a Friday we weren't even sure if we would know the results. And waiting a whole weekend , anxious and in pain was unbearable. Thankfully, after an hour or so, the neurologist came and gave us the news that everything was clear, and what they saw in the other hospital was probably an artifact. Bobby and I just broke down.Too overwhelmed for words, the doctor said he wanted us to know this and would discuss the details after the weekend.The following week, they were ruling out one thing after another. After the NG tube was put he just somehow stopped drinking from me or the bottle. End of the week we returned home and we were once again a family all under one roof. My mother was able to extend and stay until we got back, which proved to be of such a big help , for Benjamin and Elijah to have their usual routine of school and other activities.

When he turned 4 months old

I have summed up our two long weeks in a paragraph , but it has been too traumatic to write more. Even through this difficult time, God sustained us and provided healing for him one after the other. I am sure whatever these experienced senior doctors saw was there. And in time to confirm or label it, God wiped away any sign of harm in him. The support in prayer and people being there at the right time was God orchestrated. 

For the next few months, God healed him as much as he was healing us. It took a while for me to be "unstuck". I felt as though I was still in the first month. It took a while for me to regain my confidence in getting out other than church and school drops and pickups with David .

I have a habit of journaling and writing down prayers and things I would like to receive from God, for me and for other friends and family. And when they are answered, I highlight them. The list of healing I wrote for David is slowly filling up with more highlighted parts. 

Cheeky 5 month old David

Throughout , the only thing He asked me to do was "give thanks". Thats was a tall order to be expected from me , but with every small weight gain, with every smile, every spoon or sip he took, I learned to "give thanks". I learned to give thanks for the things He is yet to answer.

As the promise He gave my mother says " Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning. James 1:17" , David is indeed that good and perfect gift.

Having fun with his brothers

With my family for his thanksgiving service